I’m more than a quarter of my way through graduate school, and even though it is winter, and workloads are high, I’m happier than I have been in a very long time. Some bigger questions have started lingering, however, and I don’t have prior experience in this particular area to look to places.
Intellectual community, or being enlivened by the people around oneself, the activities around oneself is a major component in how I see and build on my own happiness. While I had instances of this throughout my undergraduate life, and even my working life, I have thus far been unsuccessful in finding sustained intellectual community, that too, in graduate school!
I realize that many things, such as the current weather, and the unfortunate location of York is acting against my own interests. York simply has not invested or been successful in its intellectual placemaking, as I, and many others expected it should be. There is simply no school culture.
I am not sure I want to live in Toronto either after the completion of my program. It simply does not seem like a place I’m meant to stay in. I don’t think my talents are best used in this city, but what alternatives there are, I’m still not about them.